I Finally Realised What I Should Do

It has been a long time since i didnt write again because i don't have anything else to tell about my life until today. I knew all the long what i should be doing instead of wasting my time doing unnecessary things. Especially when it comes to love relationships. I know that i'm like a fool before chasing after girls that i think could be my girlfriend if i kept on trying. I was wrong, being a fool only hurts you honestly. But now i'm different now. I have realised that sometimes things can't be the way we want them to be. There's always a barrier in them. We can't have whatever we want or how we want them to be. There's a limit in our lives. We should know the limit before we cry over split milk. To be honest with myself, i asked myself this question. " Do i really need a girlfriend at this moment? " I kept asking the same question again and again. The same answer kept appearing in my mind. No, no, no and no... I wonder why i will be thinking like this. I puzzled and puzzled trying to think why. In the end i came to a conclusion that is " Maybe we're no meant to be together after all " . When i think about this statement, i felt sorry for those whom i have hurt before and sorry for all the things that i have done wrong in my life as well. How good if i can reverse time and fix all my problems? But i can't as there is no such thing as time reversal. So i should keep moving forward in life with no regrets and never repeat the same mistake in the past as there will always be a day when good things might happen to us...

A Beginning Of A New Year

It's almost time for school to reopen once again. All the holidays are over for now. It's also time to start a new life once again. May this life be different but better. Moreover, year 2009 has ended and here come year 2010. Wishing all a happy and properous New Year! This year is where everything starts over again and changes at the same time. So brace yourselves to face this year with courage and confidence for those who will be sitting for UPSR/PMR/SPM and STPM. Best of luck to all of you. May your dreams and wishes come true this year! ^^

Some Things Just Wont Change

Have you ever thought of changing something in your life? You tried really hard to change it but it just end up being the same. I have tried to change quite a lot of things in my life. Some were a success while others were a failure. Sometimes i really feel like giving up on the things i can't change because it's just like i'm wasting my time. As an example, a person's feeling. Do you think you can change a person's feeling towards someone? Logically we can but not everyone can do so. It's quite hard to change something in life.

"Some things are capable and possible to change" but i don't really agree with this statement as i don't seem to have changed the things i wanted the most to be different. Maybe if i tried again and again, someday it would be different. Do u think changing something in life is possible?

What's Life?

Here i am again with my wonderful tales of life. It really hard to explain what is in one's life. So many unexpected happenings awaits a person. We can't escape from it neither ignore it. It's faith in one's life. Some of them would bring joy and happiness to a person while some of them would bring misery and sorrow to one's heart. I have experienced many of this thing called "faith". It's really hard to imagine that the thing we didn't want it to happen actually do happens but takes a long period of time.

This sort of thing that happens are such as the loss of the relationship with friends when we were small. As we grew older, they or even we will forget one another. It's really a heartbreaking experience in my life. However, you can't cry over split milk in life as nothing changes after it has happen already. A strong will to carry on without them is the best solution to this situation. To be honest with you i myself have encountered with this situation and managed to continue my life with no regrets.

What else can we call as faith then? Have you ever realised that you used to call some people our best friends? How can they be called as our best friends then? Is it related to something that they do to us in life that made us better? Maybe this isn't the way we should think of a person in life. I wouldn't be choosy when it comes to being friends with a person (boy/girl). I would welcome my new friend with warm hands because i know that being a friend is better than being an enemy.

I have always dreamed of meeting a girl in my life who is my true love. Most people say your true love will appear someday. But is it really possible to happen? I don't think that there is such thing as true love. It is true because we think that it is true. Maybe we should sit down and relax a little sometimes to calm our thoughts and minds. It could be a way to solve our pressure in life especially for a person like me. Most of my relatives and even my family say this to me about having relationships " It isn't the right time to have one now, you should focus on your goal in life first.. " So i asked myself this question everytime " Is it wrong to have a relationship now? " I think they just want what is best for me in life so i won't be regretting later on...

How To Solve This Problem?

Maybe it isn't only me but most of the people in the world are facing the same problem as me. What is the problem then? I have a love problem. I keep falling in love with girls.. -.-'' I can't help myself from not doing so. Maybe they are too attractive to me. Or maybe there's a story behind it. What should i do then? Find a girlfriend? Don't talk often to girls? I'm stuck in a middle of a road calling for help but no one's there..

The 2nd problem is finding a girlfriend. It's really difficult to find or meet a girl who cares for you or love you. I really envy those who are in a love relationship. Because i don't know how these people started as a couple and last very long. I really admire my friends who are a couple until today.. I may not be an expert in love relationship but i have a really good advice to all couples.. Treasure your loved ones always and never make them lose faith on you. Do what is right and don't think about the wrongs.. I wish you all the best!! ^^

Have You Ever Experienced This?

It's like this... If someone gives you a present for your birthday or any other events that happenned in your life, will they ask you back for the present? Obviously they won't, don't they? The present is a sign of appreciation or sincerity that comes from the heart. What will you do if they ask the present from you? Will you give them back? Or will you say no? How would you feel then? I would feel so pissed and angry to have such a friend in life. They don't even deserve to be called a friend. More like an idiot in life who does not think before taking any action. For those who haven't experience this before, my advice to you is " Beware whenever you are accepting something no matter from whom " . You always think wisely before accepting something or you will have to face the consequences when something bad happens to you. Don't be greedy in life. Learn to be thankful with what you have and this will bring good to you. I assure you...

My 18th Birthday

It has been almost a week since my birthday ended. But the memories that i experienced throughout my birthday is never forgettable. This year was the best among the previous years. I ate a total of 3 cakes this year.

The 1st was from my previous schoolmates. I was invited to the Green Box Karaoke by them. At 1st i thought it was just a gathering, as we used to sing together at the karaoke. However i was really surprised that day when they played the " Birthday Song " for me. Out of any of my expectations, a birthday cake approaches my very eyes. I felt so touched and happy that they remembered my birthday as well as gave me a cake. The cake was fantastic! It was really delicious and mouth watering. I was truly thankful to them for giving me such a wonderful time on my birthday... So THANK YOU!! ^^

The 2nd was from my schoolmates which is also the school which i'm studying now that is Bandar Tun Hussein Onn 2. This is really a perfect school for form 6. Anyway as i was saying, i was in the class with my Maths T teacher, Pn.Eng that day. Till my teacher kept saying she was cold and wanted to turn off the fans. But i told my teacher i was hot so i turned it a little lower. Suddenly, a cake came from behind of me and all my classmates started singing the " Birthday Song " . I was so surprised once again. I didnt knew that they would have bought me a cake and remembered my birthday as well. The cake was also delicious and filling. I ate till i couldnt ate anymore. I am truly thankful to them for giving me such a wonderful time on my birthday... So THANK YOU!! ^^

The last was from my family. Eventhough they are the last ones who wished me but they were the best. I had pizza for dinner together with a box of spaghetti and drinks... Later that night, i was watching tv till they called me over to the dining table and brought out a cake. They sang the " Birthday Song " and then we started eating the cake. Eventhough the birthday cake wasn't so surprising as my mum told me that there's gonna be one but the cake was special. It was a green tea cake made up of creams and marshmellow. Frankly speaking, i hate to eat anything that has to do with green tea. However since it was my birthday, everything must go smoothly! So i tasted the cake for the first time. Man.... It tasted as if i was eating grass.. It was bitter but i ate the whole piece as we should not waste our food.

I felt really touched, joyed and surprised this birthday and hope that next year will be even better. Thank you all! I really appreciate your gifts and memories you have given me. I will always treasure them in my heart..